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Subject:Need your help
Time:12:06 am
Current Mood:workingworking
So since I am fed up with school..I have decided to do some more of my own creative writing, if you will. I am currently working on a piece...and I need some feedback from all of you! Sooooo read the following...and answer the best you can. In your OWN opinion...and don't worry, there will be NO rude comments towards you for your personal opinion from ANYBODY!!! This is just for a piece I am working on and I'd like the views of other people. Just leave your age and sex as well. Thanks guys!

What are your feelings on AIDS? (Sadness, Anger, why its spreading, what could be done to stop the spread of AIDS) What affect do you think the media has had on our society regarding AIDS?

Do you think that a single mother/father can raise a child(ren) just as well as 2 parents could? Why or why not?

Do you believe in God?

What are your thoughts on ADD/ADHD among children? Do you think that medications should be administered to these affected children? Why or why not?

And finally....

List 6 adjectives/feelings that come to mind first. The first 6, preferably.

Thanks guys!!! :)
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Subject:English paper
Time:08:17 pm
Current Mood:disappointeddisappointed
So I need your help. I had to write a Memoir for my english class. So, pretty mcuh, I had to write a story about a moment in my life. So, the most significant moment in my life so far that I could come up with was Alexa being born...duh. So I would really really really appreciate it if you all could read it (it is kind of long, i apologize) and give me some feedback. Good, bad, ugly. Anything. As long as you don't personally bash me! lol.

thanks guy <3

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Subject:Bachelorette Party
Time:12:56 pm
So...I completely forgot that my journal was friends only...therefore you people that I was referring to in the last post...well, you wouldn't know about it because you couldn't see it.

anyways...leave a comment...or IM on TiLICoLLaPsE812 on AIM to discuss the happenings of the bachelorette party for ctstalker.

:)
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Time:10:47 am
Current Mood:gigglygiggly
OMG I totally just had Alexa dancing and groovin to Queen's "Another One Bites The Dust"!!!!!!!!!! Funniest thing EVAR! I totally wish I had a video camera!!! She is totally just so incredibly adorable! Hahahahahaha.

:)
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Time:02:54 pm
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hcj812's LJ stalker is saturn939!
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Time:10:29 am
Current Mood:cheerfulcheerful
so...my seeing saturn939 kick has NOT ENDED YET! :-) YAY! she came over yesterday afternoon, and we watched "The Life of David Gale"...I love my Dejio and everythin... but she totally asked like a GAZILLION questions. But it was kinda funny anyways...she liked the movie, or at least i think she did. More suspensful than she would like, hence all the questions. But I like that movie. kopinkstars52 came over when the movie was almost over. It was really awesome to see her, shes home from school now. YAY! :-) She goes to school in New Hampshire, so its so great to have her back. We hung around, smoked a few cigs, and melissa kind of caught up saturn939 with the "Randy" issues lol...and some other things. It was fun.

And...Kelly NEVER CALLED ME last night to tell me if I had kaitlyn today or not. After I specifically said, can you please call me when you find out tonight and she said "yea, definetly, i'll call you after patrick talks to his boss." and NOPE. she never called. What the fuck ever man.

And today is another day, and I get to see saturn939 again. Hehe. She's on her way over now, so I can take a shower cause I am teh dirrrty. And then we are going to the Japanese place in KMart plaza. I have never been there, but saturn939 and silverremy go there often, and both reccomend it. So I figure, what the hell, I'll give it a shot. Hehe...I have $14.39 in my bank account. How's that for poor??? LOL. So I go take out $10 and go have japanese and talk with saturn939. And there will be much rejoicing.

I'm on call tonight for EMS. I am rather nervous, I haven't even started riding with them yet, I just finished all my training crap and my friend Shon called last night and she's like, we need another EMT on the crew tomorow night from 6-midnight. Cause they have her, and she's an EMT, and the driver who is only an MRT. So I couldn't really say no...So yea, I'm on call tonight. I am really nervous. Anyways...wish me luck.

I am gonna go now...and feed my daughter, and wait for saturn939. :-) Leave me Lovins.
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Time:03:11 pm
Current Mood:bitchybitchy
headache headache headache headache headache headache headache

grrrrrr
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Time:08:41 am
Current Mood:indescribableindescribable
I am a plethora (sp??) of emotions and feelings right now. But I won't even get into that now.

I booked my flight to get home from chicago. I am like, overly excited about my road trip with saturn939! Way excited!!! Even though it's a LOT of driving...I am still excited. Lots of driving leaves much time to chit-chat with saturn939 about all sorts of stuff. (I promise, saturn939, I will try REALLY hard not to mention sperm donor during our trip. I know you must be sick of listening to me bitch about it!> But seriously...we get to spend so much time together, I am so excited. And of course, we have to stop at tourist traps...and breaks for her cause she's driving all that way...and breaks so i can smoke cigarettes cause I can't smoke in her car. And breaks for food and to pee. :-) But I am excited. :-) And its totally official now, cause I have a plane ticket home :-)! Woohoo! We couldn't find the flight that we originally had found, but I must commend our efforts because after much searching and yelling at the computer and getting frustrated, we found another flight leaving an hour earlier than the flight I was going to take. But its otay...and theres a stop too. So I have to change planes. Joy. And I'll be arriving at Bradley later than the other flight too. But its otay. As long as I get home.

I hate our government. I hate Iraq, too.

I can't wait for the weekend. I don't know why, but I just can't wait. I have no plans, and Bob is on call. Again. Joy to the freakin world. So even if I WANTED to make plans, I couldn't. Oh well. Bob and I are going to start saving this week. We've been talking about it for like, ever...about how we need to put money away every week and not touch it and just save it up. Well, it hasn't happened yet for some reason. So when Bob gets his check this week he's going to give me $100 to put in my lock-box. And when I get paid, I am going to put $50 in my lock-box. That's $150 a week to put away. And we're going to need it for all the wedding stuff and to get a place to live once we get married. I stress out about this way too much. But I think I have reason to...I don't want to be married and not have our own place to live. Cause that would suck. So, hopefully everything works out. Although its going to suck hardcore when I stop watching Kaitlyn, because I will have to find another job...part time...and I am so limited as to when I can work. That's the part that sucks. But I will start my search...and hopefully find a place that is willing to be flexible as far as hours go. I need as many as I can get, but its so hard to find something that is flexible. Bob doesn't have a SET time that he gets out of work everyday...so I just have to guess. It's different every day. So I can't say "I'll be to work at 5"...because I most likely won't be. Get my problem??? If only I could find a job that I could do from home. Calling businesses or something, my mom used to work for ummm..uhhh....I forget the name of the place. It's like a carpooling service...EasyRide or something? And you pay and get picked up for work or something like that. She used to call from home, she had a list of numbers or something. I wish I could find something like that. Or anything from home that I got paid. Mailing out stuff, or something. I just don't know.

Anyways..I'm off for now. Leave some love!
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Time:10:07 am
Current Mood:crankycranky
So Kelly officially PISSED ME OFF yesterday. GRR. She usually gets out of work around 4:30, and gets here around quarter of 5 to pick up Kaitlyn. Well, she calls me yesterday at 3:30 to tell me that she's out of work. And that she's going to be late picking Kaitlyn up because she's going to get her nails done. WHAT?!?!?!?! It would be one thing if she was running late at work or something, cause its happened before, and I know how work can be, got to tie up a few odds and ends before you leave for the day...that is totally understandable, so I don't mind. I would also have been okay if she got out early, went to go get her nails done, and would be here at the same time she would normally be here to pick Kaitlyn up. But she was out an hour early, and was going to be LATE picking up her daughter. WTF!?!? GRRRRR I was so aggravated. She didn't get here until like, quarter after 5 or 20 after, something like that. so almost 45 minutes late picking up her daughter. I was so pissed. But of course, I am way too nice to say anything about it. Whatever.

saturn939 came over yesterday and spend the afternoon with me...it was nice. I love when she comes over. Its nice to have company from friends. She gave me a haircut and we played with the babies and took a few quizzes online and stuff. I enjoy her company. :-)

Bob got home and I made bacon and eggs for both of us for dinner real quick before I had to make it to the firehouse. I was running a few minutes late, but its okay because the woman I was meeting there was later than I was. I chit-chatted with a few people...Pete, Erin...started cleaning some things, and then she arrived. We went through ambulance 4-B...man this woman had to talk for like, 20 minutes about one thing. I know what things are, just want to know WHERE they are on your ambulance. I saw Brett for a few minutes which was nice...and then continued checkin through everything on 4-B. We finally finished, and I signed the sign-in sheet and we headed to the Court Street station to check out 4-A. That took a matter of a few minutes, only because I was on 4-A cleaning and such at the last drill I was at. I met with the equipment guy, and after leaving Court Street we headed to the West Street station to get my equipment. I got all sorts of goodies...it was like Christmas! lol. Everything I got was used...well, my jacket, jumpsuit, turnout coat were all used...but I got a brand spankin' new helmet. It is so sweet. BRAND NEW. I thought I would get a used one, but no...brand new. It's so sweet. Anyways...and I got a 1st Responder jump kit. Brand new as well...and a gear bag. Also brand new. I also got a portable oxygen thingy ma gigger...not with O2 in it, but a regulator and some masks and tubing. Fun stuff. I managed to drag ALL this stuff down 3 flights of stairs and out to the truck without falling, a feat in and of itself. I got home and Bob helped me get everything inside. We hung around for a little while, and then it was time for bed. Cause I was so beat. I didn't get home until almost quarter after 10. I usually would get home on a monday no later than 9. Oh well.

I am really tired today. I signed up to do 2 hours on Sunday at Stop and Shop because its EMS Appreciation Week or something, so we're setting up a table or something outside of Stop and Shop on sunday. I have no idea what we're doing, but when I was at the Court Street station there was no one signed up to help...so I figured it would look good if i volunteered to help out for a couple hours. 12-2...I figured that wouldn't be too bad.

The munchkin is awakening...I must go.
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Time:09:08 am
Current Mood:exhaustedexhausted
My weekend for the most part was very good. Season finale of Third Watch was Friday. :-( And they TOTALLY left us hanging!!!!!!!!! I can't believe I have to wait until october to know what happened. GRRRRR.

Saturday was good, I spent a lot of time at my grandma's house. It was nice. The whole fam (minus my little brother) went out for dinner Saturday night at 99. It was fun. Mom, Dad, Gram, Me, Bob, Alexa, and my older brother Tim. It was fun times...Alexa was rather good throughout everything. So that was nice. We then went shopping for mothers day, talk about last minute!

Saturday night, before I went to bed...I decided to check the Gateway CC online student database thingy to see if they had awarded me any financial aid, or if anything had changed regarding my status. And the page opened up and I saw ... "You have been awarded aid for the 2004-2005 school year." and I was like, WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! I started freaking out, thinking that my eyes were decieving me (I mean, it WAS 1 in the morning!) And sure enough, I had been granted $4200 for the fall and spring semesters. Which means that I'll have to pay for books...but my tuition itself will be paid. And the totally AWESOME thing about that...is that both parts of my financial aid package are GRANTS. Which means, I get to go to school FO' FREE! :-) GAHHH!!!!!! I don't have to pay them back! Woohoo!!!! That was the highlight of my weekend. So, I'm going to school! :-)

The events to follow my exciting 1 AM moment on saturday are not so exciting. I was up ALLLLLL night saturday night. I slept for an hour from 6:30 sunday morning until about 20 after 7. There is something seriously not right going on in my body. And I should call a doctor. or something. I will do that today. So anyways...yea, I was in a lot of pain. Pain to the point of just laying there crying into the pillow, trying really hard not to wake up Bob or the baby. Finally, I had to wake Bob up. I was just crying cause I didn't know what to do, and it hurt so bad. So I woke Bob up around quarter of 5. He's like, Honey whats wrong? and all I could do was cry. I was in so much pain. I felt like someone was taking a knife and stabbing little holes all over my lungs. That is what it felt like...A thousand knives stabbing at my lungs...continuosly...and nothing made it better. So Bob got me 4 Advil, hoping that would ease the pain so I could get SOME sleep. And then the baby woke up. So Bob got the munchkin and fed her and changed her, and as he was doing so...I felt that there was an Advil stuck in my throat. I absolutely HATE taking pills...and sometimes I just CAN'T take pills if they are too big. Well I managed to get down the advil, but I felt like there was one stuck. And it was making me want to gag. And I got that watery feeling in my mouth and thought I was going to throw up. So bob went and got me something to drink...and after that, I felt a little better about the advil being stuck in my throat. Pain was still there...but I laid back down anyway. And around quarter after 6, the pain started to subside a little. I kept praying...."Lord God, please help to heal this pain in my body" Not knowing whether that would actually work or not, but I just kept saying it. That is how bad my pain was. And by the good grace of God or the good grace of Advil, the pain started to go away, and I fell asleep around 6:30AM. Only to be awoken at 20 after 7. I came home and Bob had RCIA at church at 8:30, so we came here, and the baby was asleep so I laid ont he couch around 9ish and fell asleep. I didn't wake up until Bob woke me up around 12ish...and then I fell back asleep, and my mom woke me up at 12:30 because "dinner" was almost ready. I felt better that I slept cause I hadn't the night before. I woke up to my mother telling me who called...and there were lots of them. People to wish me happy mothers day. It was my first mothers day ya know. I felt old. lol. But it was nice.

I took some advil again before dinner because I felt the pain coming back. We ate...it was nice. Then we opened mothers day gifts and cards, it was nice. I got a white gold charm bracelet with a diamond heart on it from Bob, and a frame with a picture of Alexa and me in it. My mom got me these chocolate covered rasperry cookies that are double dipped in actual chocolate liquer. They were good, I only had one cause they were huge! I am not one for too much chocolate.

We went to Puerto Vallarta in middletown for dinner, Bob and me and the baby. It was a neat place...people call you amigo and senorita and stuff. It was cool. We ordered some stuff, it was good. Spicy, but good. And then Alexa knocked over Bob's entire glass of lemonade...and it got all over him, and the seat and everything. But I couldn't help but laugh becasue I said "Alexa, you got daddy all wet!" And she smiled and laughed. How can you get mad at that??? lol. so cute.

I am really tired. My body has still not caught up from the weekend horror. I'm still not feeling 110%. Oh well. I'll write more laters. I have to go to the Firehouse tonight...joy. So maybe I will have time to write more before then, if not...have a good day. :-)
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